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Sent: Tuesday, October 4, 2011 11:42 PM
To: jeevacation@gmail.com

lately i have been thinking a lot about steve and i.

I'm not getting younger and i want the security of knowing i have some=ne around for the long term i look around and see a whole bunch of alone women my age or even a li=tle older and it is sad - not as sad when they have children to keep them =ompany (or maybe worse?) they sort of spent their best years with one person and then got dumpe=, usually they are super surprised by it

i have been with steve nearly 13 years worried that he will soon decide to move on and that would be devastat=ng for me since i have built my world around him there is nothing driving a decision to stay or go in any way and as be=t i can tell things seem to be great i adore him and have immeasureable respect for him i have never cheated on him

## not sure what to do?

every year as time passes i realize that i am way past my "sell by" da=e i have no desire to be with anyone else but i worry that it could happen at any minute