To: jeff epstein[ieevacation@gmail.com]
From: 
Sent: Fri 7/31/2009 3:37:58 AM
Subject: week-1

Now that your vacation is over, you'll need a new email address. How about girlsgirlsgirls@gmale.com ?

What have you been up to? What were the final terms of your release? Are you confined to your house? If you have a probation officer, don't worry because their caseloads are usually so big that they don't have time to see you after the initial visit. I still want to visit. My jury duty is finally over but I have a cyst that I'm getting removed on August 18th. What are you doing on Holidays. I can come down in October, if you think things are too crazy now.

Today would have been my 25th wedding anniversary. Despite having read Authentic Happiness and Learned Optimism, I'm not optimistic about my future love life. My explanatory style for why I'm alone is permanent, pervasive and personal. I followed a friend's advice tonight and went online to check out match.com and eharmony. I realized two things that 1) I am taller than a lot of men and 2) 55- 60 year old men are really old and unattractive. If you were really my friend, you'd marry me (again) so i could avoid all of the humiliation of dating.

In retrospect, I think it may have been a mistake not to buy a coop in June. I've had to withdraw from my savings for July and August to meet the expenses of this rental and now I'll have less money to buy a coop next Spring, at most likely higher prices (more pessimism.) Oh well, can you please give me some advice about investing to help offset these monthly expenses and preserve my capital. (I watch CNBC, sometimes).

Love,

P.S. If you consider my marriage proposal---I'll even throw eggplant rollatini in the deal!